Your Next Disaster

Though we’re a bit low on money lately… I really wanted some new clothes to wear on our honeymoon :X I know it probably wasn’t the greatest idea.. but not many of my summer clothes from last summer fit like they used to because of my pregnancy belly - That’s what we’ve decided to call it :P It’s where the peritoneal dialysis fluid is and I rub it all the time like I’m pregnant anyways.. so I might as well go with it! I found some really pretty sure and the puffy style of clothes this year really hides it well.. didn’t find a new bathing suit top yet but I will keep looking! You only get one honeymoon.. and I at least want to feel pretty on it, no fun feeling like a ugly pregnant person whose clothes don’t fit - that’s lame. I didn’t spend THAT much money.. Joe spent more getting the brakes fixed, so there! Stupid Toyota.

The wedding is in EXACTLY two weeks.. wow, I can’t even believe it. I’m kind of at the point where I think about it and I panic! Just because it’s SO close.. and I’m worried about things that I don’t need to worry about.. but overall, I’m just really excited to see everyone and have a great time… I feel like I’ve been planning this forever, I didn’t think it would ever actually get here and now that it is, I don’t know what to do with myself! Hair cuts, pedicures, manicures, eye cream reviews, eyebrow waxing, spa day; I want to do it all!

So, as i mentioned previously.. we switched to DirecTV. We finally had it installed yesterday… and it’s all been nothing but problems ever since! First and foremost, I called our cable company (Knology: where customer service only exists until you’re a customer) about 2 weeks ago to see how much internet alone would be - they told me $24, cool, not a problem. I call yesterday to cancel my cable television and they tell me internet alone will be $64… WOW! That’s a huge price hike - what’s the deal? They say the $24 was a promotion they were running and it expired the day before I called… I tell them the situation and what the guy previously told me and she says he was wrong and I wouldn’t have qualified for the $24 price anyways because I am not a new customer. Ok. A different supervisor tells me that price never existed AND I never called previously… I was unaware I was a habitual liar that went around making up random dollar amounts I’d like to pay, good to know. A lot of arguing and escalating to supervisors later and we’ve made no progress… $64 for internet this day and age is OUTRAGEOUS! (I wanted to spell LUDICRIS but I can’t remember how to spell it any different than the rappers name..) So, I tell them to just cancel it, thinking they’ll budge or something since I’ve been a long time customer, nope, they don’t care. Nice.

I don’t know what to do now.. I don’t know where else to get internet from other than DSL and I’m not sure how I feel about that. Not to mention the fact that DirecTV isn’t going so well.. they say we cannot have the CW because our area does not support it.. well, I’m pretty sure I had it before. They also originally told us we’d get all the channels in HD… cause that’s what we paid for, but nope. ABC, NBC, CBS and FOX are not offered in HD. What utter CRAP. I hate to crawl back to my awful Cable company with my tail between my legs… but I just want to watch TV :( Not to mention the fact that DirecTV doesn’t support WiFi or Netflix streaming.. I mean, WTF? Join us in 2010, please.

All in all these companies have forced me to go in search of some hemorrhoids relief for the PAIN IN THE ASS they are giving me! Ah, remember when TV was simple? I miss those days…

Oprah is looking for the biggest GLEEKS (fans of GLEE), so of course, I entered Kenny and I ;) Obviously, we are the biggest GLEEKS and we have the best sob story.. so come on, Oprah! Pick us! If you win, you get to go on the show with the entire cast and talk and what not. I’m not a great talker, but come on, it’s Oprah! It’s kind of in the middle of my honeymoon… but I don’t know how I could pass up Oprah ;) She could probably buy me a new honeymoon anyways and a new Kidney to boot! Heh, if only.

Here’s what I submitted:

Hi Oprah! We are writing to let you know that we are GLEE’s BIGGEST FANS! First off, our names are Kristi Flynn and Kenny Brown - we are both legally blind and went to the SC School for the Deaf and Blind together for 10+ years. We’ve faced a lot of diversity in our lives, not just from being legally blind (which is a hurdle in and of it self!) but Kristi’s kidneys recently failed and she is now on dialysis waiting for a transplant while Kenny has recently come to terms with his homosexuality.

GLEE has been a huge inspiration to us. Even though we’re not in high school anymore - we connect with these characters! We have felt what they have felt and gone through the same situations. Watching Kurt deal with his sexual orientation really helped Kenny feel a sense of hope, he didn’t feel so alone anymore. And as for Kristi - Every Wednesday night at 9PM is the highlight of her week, for at least one hour, she doesn’t have to worry about anything except being happy & entertained! We know all the words to all the songs and even spent our New Years Eve together having a GLEE marathon and karaoke party! If anyone can call themselves GLEEKS - it’s us!

I laid it on thick ;) But it’s not like it’s not all true! Me and Kenny are pretty special and awesome, who could say not to us? So if you’re constantly having Slushies thrown in your face or always investing in acne lotion or can’t stop singing the tunes, maybe you should be entering too! If you would like to throw your name into the hat - go here and fill out the form and while you’re at it, wish us luck!

Ugh, finally getting better! Had about enough of this… need to work on wedding stuff! Got a lot of house work done yesterday between coughing fits and got some paperwork done for the mortgage and did my taxes. So.. that was a totally productive day, right? Plus, I’ve been so sickly that I’ve managed to lose weight without even trying so.. score one for unhealthyness!

LOST was lame last night… not even worth discussing so I won’t. Speaking of though, yesterday I apparently woke up early in the morning, exclaimed “It’s LOST night” and promptly went back to sleep. My cough medicine is very effective apparently… too effective, I had to stop taking it ’cause I was turning off my dialysis in the middle of the night because I wasn’t thinking clearly :P and I guess loopy Kristi just wasn’t feeling the dialysis so.. done! She’s so rational. She was let down by LOST too, poor, delusional Kristi.

BUT NEXT WEEK IS RICHARD’S EPISODE! I am super excited, I screamed and clapped when they showed the promo ;) My friends don’t understand my love for Richard… but they will, oh yes, they will. All our questions will be answered… ish.

Good Lord.. it’s been a rough week. Joe ended up having pneumonia and was home from work for a week and a half - longest he’s EVER been off - and it was for sickness… lame. Then I got sick too and I’m still a bit under the weather.. but the Dr. said mine is a just a virus and nothing serious. So that’s good at least..

So we thought the honeymoon was definitely off the table after all this crap… especially being out of work for so long. Then today, Joe’s work says they have maybe come up with a solution… UGH! Stop playing with my emotions :( I’m gonna go all bridezilla on their asses if they don’t stop jerking me around. Honeymoon, no honeymoon, maybe a honeymoon, no honeymoon, ::dangles honeymoon in my face:: - I mean, wtf.. make a decision and stop playing with me.

Maybe they just realize that they didn’t want to lose Joe? ‘Cause we were seriously preparing resumes to send out to a company that might CARE that we’re getting married… or perhaps they just realize that it was way more peaceful and efficient when Joe was on leave and want that feeling again? :P Who knows.. just hope it comes through this time ::fingers crossed::

Ugh, still no news…

but guess what? Now Joe is home sick AGAIN. At the point I’ll be lucky if he can even attend the wedding. I swear, he has a worse immune system than me. He was JUST sick less than a much ago… and now he’s got something all over again. He was up and down all night with chills and then night sweats, fever of 101, coughing, etc… so I got no sleep either. Finally at about 4AM he went and slept in the other room and I finally got about 5-6 hours of sleep.

I SWEAR he willed this into fruition.. he found out his brother was sick the other day and immediately he started saying he was having symptoms? Annoying twin thing or some type of disorder? I bet he could will himself into symptoms of malignant Mesothelioma if he really tried…

I know I can’t legitamately be mad at him for being sick… but man, this is not the time for this! We have so much going on and on top of that I can’t take care of him right now… this is just BLAH! Whatever I did the fates or God or whoever, I AM SORRY. Please forgive me and let me have my happy wedding, please??

It’s 10PM on Friday and I STILL haven’t heard from the nurse about my culture results. It was supposed to be sent STAT and be back yesterday afternoon… ridiculous. If Becca was still my nurse she would have taken care of this ASAP :( I don’t want to get a bad infection and lose my catheter because these people are incompetent… I really don’t know what else to do now. It’s the weekend and everyone has gone home. I called the PD nurse who was on call and she said she knew nothing about this situation and there was nothing she could do… thanks. She said go to the emergency room if I start to feel bad. Well gee, I’d LIKE it not to get that far, ya know? That’s just me. It’s a messed up situation.

If I thought that it would help, I WOULD go the ER. But as it is, the majority of nurses and Dr’s know nothing about PD and tend to do more harm than good as they have no training in the area. I’ve heard tons of horror stories of Dr’s / Nurses doing what they think is right and … yea, bad things happen. I sent Becca a text message with a picture of my exit site and a bit about what’s going on.. hopefully she’ll write back :/ She might already be asleep.

Why have they not perfected this dialysis thing yet? It’s like their not even trying.. it’s made barely any progress in the last 30 years - profit? You betcha. I don’t see why they can’t fit us with nice expensive Ferrari parts that don’t get infected or need to be constantly kept up… there’s got to be something better than this out there? It’s times like these where I wish for a transplant.. but I don’t know that it would be any better. I just got dealt a shitty life for no reason. Thanks.

We made some more progress today on a couple of things:

-talked to a different loan agency to get a comparison and their offer was actually lower and seemed to involve less hurdles. So, that’s always nice!
-Cleaned the house (well, Joe did :P) I’ve been instructed to not irritate my exit site so that means sitting still and “supervising” him in his work.. muahaha!
-We picked up James from his “field trip” :P He works at a middle school and went on a camping trip for a week with the kids. We never did anything like that when I was in middle school! Or… any level of school for that matter.
-We paid our rent. Always an important thing to do!

Now we’re about to go have dinner with James and check out some hp laptops for him since he’s got a little money and his computer sucks. Will still be taking it easy though.. walking doesn’t seem to irritate me as much today so.. thats progress I suppose!

I wanted to say Hello and welcome to all my new readers :) The Smoke and Mirrors review has brought in a TON of people to my blog. Pretty sure it’s my most successful entry so far, with new people coming in every day! Thank you for your comments and subscriptions to my blog and I’m glad that you like reading what I have to say! If you are new, here’s a little introduction to me:

I’m Kristi, I’m 26 years old and getting married in ONE MONTH (wow!). I live in Augusta, GA and am currently on dialysis, hoping for a transplant. I LOVE television and music and movies, anything media related really. I was a special education teacher but for the moment, my career title is “house wife” and I quite enjoy it :) I love going to concerts, though I haven’t been to one in quite a while and I also love traveling - hopefully Florida is coming up soon as the honeymoon - cross your fingers:: Or ya know, Costa Rica vacation rentals are nice as well if you would like to donate to the “Kristi wants a vacation!” fund - I accept paypal, credit cards, money orders, rare collectibles, gold, your paycheck, etc.

So there’s a little about me! Tell me about you guys now :) Who are you?? How did you get here and what makes you, well, you? Let me know in the comments section below.

Still no word from the nurse about the test… she said she’d call me as soon as she heard anything. I do feel less sore today so that’s good… i think her squeezing it to get a sample was what REALLY hurt (imagine that in your head and cringe, it was awful).

Anyways, I’m gonna try and go out and do something today.. don’t know what but I want to do SOMETHING. As long as I don’t walk to much or bump into it with anything it should be okay. We’ve got a few errands to run and some new music on the Ipod, sounds like a good time to me ;)

My wrist today looks like that of a heroine addict and it hurts to use the mouse because it hits the edge of the desk right where the bruise is.. but I shall live. I’ll also wear long sleeves so people don’t think i’m a junky :P I’ll get around to looking up those wrinkle cream reviews I talked about yesterday, as soon as I find out if there’s something to worry about further… hopefully not!

Well, tonight was the night on The Office. Jim and Pam had their little Halpert <3 It was a very cute episode - made me extremely nostalgic. Can’t believe how far they’ve come and how long I’ve been with this show! So weird to think that Jim Halpert is now a father… the same Jim Halpert who put Dwights stapler in jello and couldn’t tell Pam how he felt and looked longingly at her all day long. I’m sadly one of those fans who lost a little bit of the luster of them when they got together.. which is really sad because THATS WHAT I WANTED! But tonight was very cute :) and I think what I really miss in the end, is the focus on Jim and Pam. Now that they’re together they don’t focus on them as much.. so I’m going with that being the reason.

I loved having a whole episode centered around them though… and they were so adorable in the hospital. I gasped when they found out Pam was feeding the wrong baby.. awkward. All in all, I thought it was a good episode. Also, Dwight is crazy.

So now that this is over is Pam going to be MIA for a few weeks due to maternity leave? That’ll be sad :( Hopefully we’ll get to see some more of their home life though. I’m sure when she returns Kelly will be telling Pam weight loss success stories because, as we know - pregnancy is no excuse to get fat :P (Thank You, Sue Sylvester).

This is the only episode I’ve really enjoyed this season.. and even still I didn’t enjoy it like I USED to enjoy the Office. Does anyone else feel that way? Does it still make you laugh like it used to?

Been trying to take it easy all day… it hurts to move so I didn’t want to make the situation worse by doing too much. So, I’ve essentially been laying in bed all day watching Dawson’s Creek, reading facebook / twitter and searching for newAmazon books to keep me occupied… I am not a fan of not being able to do anything - if you’ve ever been around me at my house (or your house perhaps :P) you know I HAVE to straighten up, constantly. Right now I’m not able to and… depending on Joe to do it is pretty pointless. i can supervise him and direct him in what to do but it still doesn’t end up getting done in the manner of which I am accustomed but I do appreciate that he tries..

So yea… after laying down all day I am strangely tired. Weird how that happens, right? I haven’t done any sleeping but I guess just not feeling good in general makes you exhausted… the nurse hasn’t called back yet so either she didn’t get the test back or nothing major was wrong and she forgot to call. Fingers crossed for the second one.

So.. I don’t know if this will contain spoilers ’cause like.. nothing happened but I’ll put a spoiler warning anyways.

*****SPOILERS******

Yea… not sure what the point of Sayid’s flash sideways were.. that Sayid will always choose to kill people? Ok. And is he evil on the island now or just selfish? I donno… Smoke Monster is good at pretending he’s the good guy I guess, like Satan. I’m just hoping that Claire will follow through and kill Kate, THAT is a day I will be happy and I hope she takes Jack with her. That would be a victory for this show in my eyes ;)

Joe had a really interesting theory that I had not considered… that the mirrors lead to the alternate universe as opposed to giving a look at whats happening / happened in the current world. Makes sense as Jacob doesn’t want them to get off the island / be happy thus he knew Jack would break them taking them out of the equation. Plus, someone pointed out that there’s no ring of ash around the light house so… yea, theories!

But this episode as a whole… was really disappointing / frustrating to me. They advertised it as “YOU WILL GET ANSWERS” and then didn’t give any.. and then right after it aired Damon Lindelof (writer) posted on twitter that “One mans answers are another mans questions” - GRR! I swear if I am not satisfied by the end of all this that a colon cleansing pill will mysteriously appear in the systems of all those in charge of writing for LOST - oh yes, my wrath will be felt!

In the midst of all that’s going on we also had an appointment with the Home Loan officer. According to him we’re one step away from being able to be approved and sign a contract - just have to get a letter from Joe’s student loan people saying he’s deferred and we’re good to go. He seemed pretty optimistic that we could close in April.. that’d be great and make us eligible for the first time buyers credit (for which we couldn’t even DO this without.)

Lately with Joe’s hours getting cut all the time we’ve been having to live less than paycheck to paycheck so any little bit would definitely help! We’re desperately in need of somehome budgeting software to help us manage all of this.. well, Joe at least, I’m pretty good about budgeting, it’s just getting him to listen that is hard. I think once we get past the wedding we’ll be good again and at least comfortable to not have to worry constantly. My tax returns is being done right now as we speak.. Hopefully I’ll be getting a tax return too ::fingers crossed::

I’m back from clinic… the nurse said the exit site didn’t look good and took a sample to send off to the lab to be cultured :/ I wish I would have followed my instincts.. I KNEW it was a bad idea and I should always follow what my head is telling me. After all I’ve been through I should know that Dr’s are in fact human and even the best ones don’t have all the right answers.

Besides that the visit wasn’t too pleasant all around… my veins were being stupid and the nurse had to stick me three seperate times. They take blood so often that eventually the veins just stop wanting to work… she finally got what she wanted out of my wrist and once she was done it swelled up like a golf ball pretty immediately… never seen that happen before. I am so done with this day… I just want to go home and relax, indulge in a pedicure and deep wrinkle treatment (’cause lord knows I’m going to need it!) and not think about any of this..

Hopefully, this too shall pass and I can go back to worrying about frivolous things like the wedding..

I’ve felt a bit crappy the past few days… I don’t know what’s up but I hope it goes away. It started last week when my Dr. wanted me to start using soap on my exit site (I’ve been using the specialty stuff the dialysis company sends) - I REALLY didn’t want to because it just didn’t sound like a good idea to me.. plus, why mess with what’s been working fine for a year. He was concerned about the scab… but my exit site has had a scab on it since I got this catheter put in (different scab of course, it falls off and comes back) and it hasn’t caused any problems so far. So I was reluctant to try it.. but I did, made sure to get the most gentle soap there is, Ivory, and was very careful in trying it… but it was really irritated the area. It produced a HUGE scab (which I just got rid of this morning) and made the whole area red… now I’m extremely worried that it might have gotten infected… God, I hope not. Infection is a very very bad thing. I’m hoping that since I have stopped using the soap and went back to the old method that it will gradually clear up and get back to normal… going to the clinic today early to make sure it’s not infected already ::fingers crossed::

Also been having a lot of shoulder / foot pain… The shoulder pain I’ve had before, it’s caused when the PD fluid pushes on a nerve in the stomach that is connected to the shoulder. But yesterday my stomach AND shoulder were hurting simeltaneously, like really bad, and that’s never happened before. It was weird.. but I took something to put me back to sleep and when I woke up all was well. My shoulder is hurting again today.. I’ve tried all thebest joint supplements but nothing works on this kind of thing. I can deal with that though, as long as it’s just that. I’m not sure why it all of a sudden decided to come back.. I haven’t had this problem since like last June.

Please don’t let me fall apart right before the wedding.. PLEASE.

As Joe pointed out to me earlier today - apparently everyone doesn’t know what a “B-side” is, usually just common knowledge in the crowd I hang out with but for those of you who are a little confused:

A B-side in this day and age is a track that doesn’t make the album - it may come on a special edition of the original album or as an exclusive to a particular store or online purchase. It originally meant the opposite side of the record or cassette tape with an extra song on it (bring back memories?)

So, that being said we got the B-sides from “Smoke and Mirrors” last night. Generally, the type of music is stuff that doesn’t fit in with the album it self.. sometimes it’s better, sometimes it’s better left off. In this case I’m going with better. If this caliber of writing had been on the album, it’d be a completely different story… “Crash & Burn” is great as always, but that song is a good 4 years old. I’m glad to finally have a suitable copy though, and the lyrics are TOP NOTCH. The kind of music you can listen to on a repeat loop while cross country moving “Don’t Wake Me..”, “Near Life Experience” and even “Best Of Me” are all good lyrically. Which makes it easier to accept when songs aren’t exactly on par like “All that I’m asking For” (another from the Backstreet Boys collection).

In the end it just makes me realize that Jason STILL has the ability to write like he used to…which only brings up the question how he could settle for such inferior music on the actual album without feeling like a sell out?

So, I managed to get my hands on an early copy of Lifehouse’s upcoming record “Smoke and Mirrors” due out March 2, 2010. As any loyal (or even random) reader of my blog knows; I am a HUGE Lifehouse fan. I’ve been listening to their music for almost 10 years now and have seen them play all over the country many, many times. That being said, this is going to be an honest review of what I think about the music… this may be the first time it’s not been all positive - so brace yourselves.

“Smoke and Mirrors” is a departure from just about everything Lifehouse has made in the past.. sometimes this is a good thing for a band but in this case it doesn’t feel like the right move to this fan. To me, the album feels like a compilation of a handful of formulas from the last 10 years that have been successful thrown into a mixer in an attempt to get a hit.

Don’t get me wrong, there are a few gems on the album - “Nerve Damage” shows a real growth and individuality that I would have liked to have seen more of. “It is What It is” is an extremely catchy tune and I LOVE it.. but it feels more like the Backstreet Boys than Lifehouse. I guess I just hold this band to a different standard than I do others - lyrics and music have always been top notch and here, neither are particularly great. There’s a bunch of songs I can enjoy on a casual level such as “All In”, “Falling In” and “Had Enough” and then there are songs like “Here Tomorrow, Gone Today” that make me question my fandom as a whole (and believe me, that’s the last thing I want to do!).

On every record they say “we’re finally playing what we want to play” and if THIS is what they want to play… then I’m not sure it’s something I want to invest in listening to. I guess nothing will ever compare to “No Name Face” or “Stanley Climbfall” - these albums defined an era and maybe at this point in life, another band is defining my era - I just wish it could still be Lifehouse. Maybe in the future it will be again.

This is only my opinion - there are people who completely disagree with me and think this may be their best album - you be the judge, pick it up for yourself on March 2 and let me know what you think.

So, my sister convinced me to give DirecTV a try - they are coming to install it next Friday. I’m kind of excited! They ASSURE me that it will work with my TiVo… we’ll see. TiVo said it wouldn’t, DirecTV says it will… who to believe, who to believe?? Either way, we’ve got to make a change.. our cable bill was getting way too high and they were just take advantage of us. And now with Directv our bill (cable + internet) will be $40 cheaper for A WHOLE lot more. DVR in the bedroom, 200+ channels, ALL THE HD channels, video on demand, etc. It’s a really good deal.. too good to be true actually, we’ll see how it goes.

I’ve already been on their website submitting some rebates (that will show up on my first bill! That never happens!) It’s a pretty snazzy site, SO MUCH better than my cable companies. It would probably point me in the direction of online life insurance if I asked it to, it’s that good. Most of all I’m looking forward to watching my shows without all the skipping and audio outages.. that’ll be glorious, bring on the change!

So, I’ve been looking into getting a higher degree in SOMETHING… though everything’s changed, I still have an interest in special education. Maybe not as severe or in the settings I delt with before but maybe back to something like a social worker or after school tutor - that type of thing where I wouldn’t have to be in a school all day but still feel like I’m making a difference.

I came upon www.wgu.edu which is a non-profit university (unlike most of them) that offers a wide variety of degree choices, including special education. They’re tuition seems really reasonable to me and with all that’s going on with me, I’m bound to get a scholarship from someone and of course help from financial aid.

www.wgu.edu also has a WIDE variety of online courses which is really important to me as it’s hard to get somewhere on a regular basis when I have Dr’s appointments, supply deliveries, not to mention Joe works most of the normal school week.

What do you guys think, should I go back to school and work on finding a career again?

I’m posting today a lot of my angry thoughts I’ve been holding in, I wonder why ;) Now, let’s talk about my once beloved TiVo… she has always been a loyal and great friend, recording what I want when I want, suggesting things I might like, giving me an easy guide to find stuff, etc. But Lately (since we got the HD TiVo actually) - it’s been pretty crappy… audio is in and out all the time, it’s skips and jumps while fast forwarding. We’ve been working on this issue with TiVo for a good 6 months now to no avail, they keep suggesting things that don’t fix the problem..

Eventually they suggested I get a new TiVo replacement for a discounted price since mine was still under warranty. Fine, let’s do it - I miss my shows! We get the new TiVo and it does the same thing… the TiVo is not the problem, but I still had to pay for it and pay to have my old one shipped to them. I reasonably ask for a refund because A: My TiVo was fine to begin with and B: it was their recommendation to make me get one.. and I still have the same problem. They refuse and say that’s not possible, I can keep this one and have two months of free service… okay, but that doesn’t nearly cover the price I paid and IT STILL DOESN’T WORK RIGHT! So I essentially paid double for these POS systems and neither one works properly… I’m very seriously considering switching to Directv and getting their DVR just so we can watch TV in peace… Anyone have Directv - what do you think?

So, I was upset this morning about Joe’s work situation, money, bills, mortgages, credit reports, etc. Not having any money to go out to eat even when we DO get paid tomorrow. He decides to find a friend that will buy him lunch and thus leaves me here by myself … not able to go out and get anything and not much in the fridge. What a gentlement. It’s not the issue that he’s going out without me.. it’s that I was upset that WE couldn’t go out and eat because we didn’t have the funds and he decides to just go without me… I mean, is it reasonable for me to be upset about this? I think it is.

If we could get a damn credit card this wouldn’t be an issue.. we could just pay for it with that and then pay it off when we get paid again. We’re working on it, got to get the credit beareu’s to update their reports then it should be possible.. that’ll be a stress reliever for sure.

Regardless, Joe is a B!

Ew, I just watched a segment on the Today show by a guy named “Dr. Germ” about pillows and all the things that grow on them - DISGUSTING! Thanks, now I’m going to have a hard time sleeping tonight ::runs to wash sheets, mattress, pillow case, comforter, self:: The pillows we have right now are not very old… maybe a little over 1-2 years but they say things can STILL be growing on them that soon… joy. Check out the video to see what could be growing on yours:

Now I will admit that Joe and I BOTH came into this house with pillow that were WELL over 15+ years old ::hides:: Mine was a down feather pillow that I had had since a kid.. and I loved it but my mom insisted it had to be thrown away - she was probably right, feathers used to stick me the in the head in the middle of the night. It wasn’t that dirty LOOKING though.. but who knows what was hiding in there - I still miss that pillow sometimes, after that many years it molds to your head ;) and I appreciate that. Now the pillows that Joe had were DISGUSTING and barely even pillows anymore.. just like clumps of cotton barely in a pillow case. He wouldn’t allow me to throw them away so I did the next best thing - hid them. No way were those pillows coming into our bedroom! Now more than ever do I believe I made the right decision - can you imagine what was growing on them!?

Watching this has made me want to invest in a more healthy pillow. Hyper allergenic, special casing - all that jazz! Anything to keep myself protecting from things growing on my pillow! Growing things in my garden is fine.. but in my bed?! No thanks. I will be showing Joe some options when he gets home - he’s a germaphobe so this video is going to freak him out! But on the plus side for me, we’ll have a whole new set of pillows and some freshly cleaned linens to sleep on tonight - win, win, win!

The Wedding is coming soon! Sooner than I realize each day - but things are coming together and I’m so so excited… we’ve got 42 days to go until the big day, WOW! Went to my dress fitting yesterday and it’s coming along great.. it’s the right length now (I’m a shorty) so it’s much easier to move around and we’re getting it bustled so I won’t have to worry about the train during the reception.. that’ll make it much easier to dance.

Today i went and did a test run of what my hair will look like with the veil, tiara and up-do and it’s going to be beautiful :) I’m excited to look PRETTY! My Aunt Bridgette has kindly agreed to do my hair and make-up so it’ll be good :) Katrina is going to help Jade and Katie - so everyone will look great! We’re going out all; manicures, pedicures, eye brows, etc - not as far as checking into colon cleanse reviews for my ladies (something someone on Bridezilla would totally do!) but we’re going to get pampered and have a great day - I know it :)

Only thing I’m still worried about is the honeymoon… I wish I knew what to do to fix this but I don’t. I need to go up to Joe’s work and talk to them myself.. people have a hard time saying no to me ::angel face:: So, maybe I’ll try to do that next week. It’s finally setting in that we might not actually get to go to FL… and it’s really upsetting, I keep thinking things WILL work out but I guess I need to face the possibility that they won’t..

I’ve been marathoning the Dawson’s Creek lately… don’t know how I got the inclination to do so. I had a dream I was watching it one night and I was SO happy for some reason! I was never a huge, OMG, fan but I used to watch it when I was in middle school / high school and I watched the finale of course (Pacey & Joey ftw!) but I was never an intense viewer, I stopped after season 4ish, I believe. When the college years started. But, I appear to be watching the whole series over again and now I’m stuck with it ;) I’m loving it though.

it’s cool to go back and remember how I was feeling at the time when I first watched it. Wishing I was prettier and talked all fancy like Joey and her friends, wishing I was tall, slender and fiesty like Jen (I would have even tried hgh releasers to be like that girl, so beautiful!) I was never a huge fan of Dawson himself ;) He came off a bit pretentious and whiney and his giant head didn’t help. I’m a Pacey Witter girl, oh, and Jack McPhee - I LOVE me some Jack! Pretty sure he was my first gay love.. and now look where we are today ;) it all started with him.

I’m in the middle of season 2 - convinced Joe to buy it for me for Valentines day because I was having SO much trouble streaming it.. got tired of the hassle and just bought the damn thing for $20… it’ll be worth it to have it in the collection. Now I have seasons 1, 2, 4 and the finale - few more to go, Joe! ::wink wink nudge nudge::

I was recently given the chance to try out a Premium E-cigarette. Before the opportunity, I had no idea such a thing even existed. Once I did the research and found out what it did and how it worked, i got really excited for the family and friends in my life who smoke. I am surrounded by them, but I myself am not a smoker. I’ve never been a fan of the smoke itself and the effects it has on the body have always kept me from trying them (thank God!) but for those who are already in the boat - a new product to help them stop smoking is always welcome!

I decided I would let my sister try them since she is still very young and is 100% committed to quitting - she just needed a little help! The e cigarette is perfect for her, it provides you with the nicotine and ritual you crave while slowly wheening you off with smaller and smaller dosages in each cartridge. It’s a really great idea and product and I’m excited to see how she does with it over the coming weeks.

It has a charger that can be plugged into the wall or the computer and is good for up to 250-300 puffs per cigarette. For the people I know who smoke 2-3 packs a day, this could definitely be a money saver and even a life saver. I’m hoping once my sister has tried it for a while and is making progress she will share her success with the rest of the family so everyone can try out this great product!

Katrina put together a little video of herself talking about the Premium E-cigarette, feel free to check it out as well as their website for more information how you can stop smoking as well. What are you waiting for?

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So… We got an answer!! I think.. but I don’t understand it! What’s it mean?! This whole thing was a big game of survival of the fittest to see who could be the new “protector” of the island? WTF!? And why the numbers… what do THEY mean? I mean, I FEEL like i got answers tonight but are they really answers if I can’t put them together into something understandable? I’m gonna do this in a bullet list instead of trying to ramble in paragraph form:

-Why isn’t Kate on the list?
-Is it gonna come down to good versus “evil” - Locke versus Jack, man of science vs man of faith, light vs. dark? Whose who? Cause I hate Jack.. don’t consider him good ;)
-I’m team Richard, wherever that leaves me.
-WHY did Jacob touch them? Katie’s mom has a theory that he touched them before they were about to die… but that doesn’t seem to work for all of them.
-How did Locke get paralyzed in alternate universe? Assuming his dad didn’t do it as they were going to invite him to the wedding.
-Ben’s a teacher?! I think he’s also a serial killer, Dexter style.
-Is there a bigger chance now that Sayid IS Jacob?
-Where exactly does Smocke want to go.. back to being a person in the real world? How is that possible?
-Why must there be commercials in LOST!? I want the information on the best weight loss pills comparison as much as the next girl but AFTER LOST! I can’t handle the stress!
-I am ruining my fingernails..
-Hurley is awesome in all universes
-Sawyer is the shit! Locke being dead and / or another person is no biggie to him, whatev’s. I hope he and Juliet are going to be happy in alternate universe.. even though I hate her, I love Sawyer and want him to be happy.
-Why did that girl grab Jacobs ashes and why were they white.. and whats it mean?!
-Are there any “Supernatural” fans out there who see ALL the similarities between these two shows?

We’re making progress… I just can’t wait ’til May 23rd! Every week is a new piece to the puzzle but also a whole ‘nother puzzle and I just want to UNDERSTAND IT! Come on LOST, give me some closure.

While I did like it in the beginning.. it quickly went down hill. Autotune? Rapping? Really…!? This is a classic and you just don’t mess with the classics. I understand they want to put a “modern” twist on it.. but it was just awful and too much. We’ll look back 25 years from now and realize how fake all our music sounded, lame. I’m sure it’ll be a huge hit though and make a lot of money for Haiti so I guess that’s good. They just didn’t capture any of the aspects of the GOOD music of today, though it’s rare in the mainstream - it IS there and it would have been nice to see that represented instead of just crap.

Oh God, I just realized I’ve turned into an old person who complains about “kids these days” and their music and longs for the old days when things were normal and right :P But who can deny that the 80’s / 90’s were awesome?! No one! I just miss the simpler times, like everyone over 21 does. I need to take that nap, I’m rambling on and on about the past. Guess I better start investing in wrinkle cream, I hear bitter makes you grow older faster ;) Did you know back in my day we had to walk to school in the snow each morning with no shoes, up hill BOTH ways?

So we ended up with about 6-7 inches, officially the most snow I’ve EVER seen in my life! The last time we had that much snowfall was 1973 and I was yet to be born so… yea! It was great while it lasted but the sun is out now and it’s melting away (not as quick as usual though!) I feel some of it might make it to tonight and freeze again, crazy! Although, it was a ton of fun I think I’m done with it ;) I’m tired of getting wet and changing clothes and being COLD! I definitely wouldn’t want this all year long.. but as long as I got my pictures, I’m happy - and look at my beautiful back yard this morning!

I stayed up as long as I could last night… I was fighting to keep my eyes open because I was scared it wouldn’t be here this morning. I made it ’til the proactiv infomercials started filling the airwaves then I was out… until 7:30 this morning :P Had to make sure my snow was still there and it was! I am exhausted though and definitely feel a nap coming on in my future today!

Joe had to go to work today… lame. He said he slid THREE times on the way to work (which is 10 minutes away usually) but his work doesn’t appear to care. The centers in Birmingham and Charleston, SC closed and we got WAY more snow that them… ridiculous.

It’s been snowing for about 4 hours now - we’ve got out a few times, I’ve had to change clothes three times already :P It’s AWESOME! Last we measured we are at 4 inches and it’s still going strong, supposed to continue ’til atleast midnight (it’s 7:30PM now). I had to go out and buy a winter coat because I did not have one (weird, since I’m ALWAYS cold) - Joe got me the one I picked out as a Valentines day present. It was a good buy because I look totally cute in my snow day pictures ;) haha, so no remorse!

Now, onto the pictures!

Snow ball fight

with Joe and James

third round of clothes

Snow angel

accumulation as of 6:00PM

I made Joe put away all theoutdoor furniture so the yard can be pretty and smooth ;) What? I’m from the south, these are the things I long for! When I was little my mom wouldn’t let us walk in the yard if it snowed so as not to “mess it up” ’cause we got so little it wouldn’t come back but this time seems to be different! Don’t think I’ll have an easy time going to sleep tonight ;) So scared when I wake up it’s gonna be gone… I don’t wanna lose it or miss my time with it! We still need to make a snowman.